Hi, I’m looking for some advice… It all started back when I was a little girl. You know? I never really thought much of it. I’d look at girls the same way I looked at guys and I just thought this was “normal” behavior, I guess. I never really like messed about with any girls or anything, but there was always this in the back of my mind.
Like, I remember my first boyfriend. I went over to his house and we’d do what kids do but there was time where he’d catch me staring at his sister… oddly. He’d say something and I’d play it off, for some reason I never really admitted it to myself. I figured, it wasn’t a big deal. I liked guys too so I wouldn’t have to worry about it. I got some enjoyment looking at women but I still got to stay straight in the public eye because I’d always be with guys.
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Well, things have changed. I met my husband back in college in America. I was studying social work and he was taking his engineering classes. We dated through college and got married a year after we graduation. Both of us want to leave the country, so we looked for work in London. We lucked out and 8 months into our job search we both had good gigs on the other side of the Atlantic. I’ve been married to him for five years, but that wandering eye of mine has been acting out lately. Not for other guys, mind you, always girls. I feel terrible about it, but I don’t know if I should. My husband is pretty laid back about stuff, and I am attracted to him and I love him dearly so I don’t want a relationship. I just want to spend some time with a lady. I caught myself looking through escorts in London and I know I have to come clean soon.
It’s seeping into all walks of my life. I’ve caught myself even staring at the older girls coming into my office, you know 18 years old and up. I can barely listen to them and I’m afraid they’ll catch me just staring. I feel like a misogynist. I can almost relate to how piggish some men get at this point. At home I still have a good relationship, in all ways, with my husband and I do not want to cheat on him. Is it wrong to want a non-physical relationship and non-emotional relationship with a woman? I just want to flirt and stare and have her do the same. This is why I’m seriously considering going out with some escorts in London.
They’re in my dreams at this point. When I was a girl I’d have those special kind of dream about people, but I haven’t had them in so long. But now, it’s like I was reawakened. Every night there’s girls in my dreams, and sometimes I feel bad for it feeling so good imagining them like that. And I’ll wake up to my husband, and I’m not disappointed seeing him. Not at all, but do you think he’d be comfortable knowing what got me going? That it’s women I’ve been thinking of and not him? I don’t know why this is happening. I guess I repressed it too long as a girl and never experimented when I needed to. It’s making me go mad, that’s for sure. I’m an adult woman having school girl fantasies about other women and particularly sexy escorts in London at this point. A nice night out with an escort in London would help more than anyone could imagine.
What’s the best way to break this to my husband? I’m worried he’ll think I’ll leave him or something. And is it wrong I don’t want him to be there? There’s no way he’d trust me in this, but maybe he will. They always say communication is key in relationships, but do you just blurt out, “Honey, I’m bisexual and I need to see an escort in London. Tonight.” And then what? I could see two things happening. He goes quiet and leaves me or he bursts out laughing and wants to send me to a therapist. Maybe a need one. I think a London Escort would be a good therapist. I know what I’ll do. I’ll just call and talk to an escort. Just to see what they’re like. I’ll tell them what I’m thinking. I know that will feel good. But I’ll want more! I would imagine having a London escort kiss all over me.
I don’t need, you know, everything. I just need to feel desirable to a woman. I’ve never had trouble with men, but I see the way women look when they’re into someone. I want them to look at me like that! Those melty eyes and heavy breathing, coy but like they can wreck your world if you want them to. Take me out somewhere you vixens. So, I guess I’m asking for some advice. I obviously needed to get this all out. It’s been spinning in my head for months now. Would you tell your husband? Husbands, if your wife told you all this how would you feel? Maybe I should just let him read this and see how he reacts.I’m scared because I NEED to do this. I need to go out with some escorts in London, just a few times and just feel what it’s like to be desired by a woman. I’ll repeat myself, I’m not looking to go too far with anyone. I just want to feel like I could.
I’ll tell my husband tonight I think. No matter what. I’ll tell him tonight. I’m not asking him for permission, but I need to tell him what is going through my head. Maybe he’ll understand. If not, then we’ll just see where we are after. But I’m going to see some escorts in London I’m going to check the sexy escorts available today and book one. Do you think he’d like coming with us? I could see that working. With both of them flaming over me. That could be fun. Maybe he’ll like it too. I’ll tell him, “Husband, I want to take out some escorts in London and have a fun flirty night. Would you like to come along?”
That solves it then. That’s what I’ll say. I guess I didn’t need advice, I just needed to vent. Maybe you’ll see me out there in the pubs of London. My husband and an escort fawning over me over drinks and me looking like I’m in heaven.